Nadaism is not dead

Do you want to know if a person who passes all the time doing nothing would be able to live a normal and happy life?

... I will not work, I will not engage any activity in the long or even in the medium term - but I'll need help! Please check out the nadaist contract at the bottom of the page

... and there's other pointless investigations ongoing, just take a look to the bar on the right hand side

Friday, January 12, 2007

Let's face it

I have no idea what to do.

I do know what I'm going to do next, I have the return flight to London, which I booked so long ago I can't remember, (when january 2007 was far away and meaningless), and I have to leave India because of the visa. I'll spend a few days in the crazy expensive city, I'll visit my family to say hello, and then I will go somewhere to stay with a friend for some time, he/she still does not know, since I don't know either. Little by little I'll get used to Europe again, and I'll see how my money flies 3 or 4 times faster compared to India, even though I'm staying with a friend. (If it takes me some time to realise it, it might be a different friend from the 1st one).

In the meantime I'll finish the novel - I'm nearly there already. I'll make everything possible to get it published, feeling very sad since if I had success it would be the end of the nadaism and this time there would be no way around, (it was still ok when I starting the regular yoga practice for the sake of it, also when I was focusing on writing just for the sake of it). But the nadaist cause needs money, and if nobody contributes, it is over. Anyway no problem for a while because it is probably a hopeless try I will make.

Then, money running out fast, novel not published, the consequence is obvious and sounds very very scary: I'll be forced to look for a job. Let's face it. It is going to happen. It will be the end.

I hope by that time I am not much worried than I am now, (i.e. right now I am not worried at all). I'm quite sure, actually.

Also I'd like to think that by that time I have an idea or a hint of what to do. But let's face it, I won't. How could you make sense of such a step.