The thing

During my wandering around, I've noticed there is something taking my decisions, I've started calling it the thing; (by decisions I mean the small simple steps that I take at all times and make up my journey, starting with what am I going to have for breakfast until whether I'm sleepy enough to go to bed).

The thing listens to the rational arguments, but is seems to be much in contact with emotions as well. When it takes decisions, all the different options I had considered seem to acknowledge the verdict from the thing is ok. Also seems to make my behaviour a bit erratic, since sometimes I take a weak decision, e.g. rationally I'm hungry and think of going for an icecream, but then the thing intervenes in front of the icecream parlour because it wasnt such a good idea, let's say I was tired and it was better to go for a siesta and I hadnt thought about it. (Those are the simple steps of my easy life, it makes it not such a complicated or emotional example).

Maybe forget about the example; I'm just trying to say there is no doubt something that takes the decisions in your mind which is not fully rational, which is over the rational stuff in a way, because it takes into account other contributions to your mind like the emotions, and also because it happens in present. It is like the (classical?) difference between the moment in which you understand something, which happens somewhere deep in your mind, in present, and it is not verbal, compared to the moment afterwards, when you take your time to rationalize it.


Of course the thing sounds mystical, one could think it is a paranormal voice, from god even, (???). That you could surrender yourself to the thing and nothing wrong would happen to you. But the thing does not make you a superhero, does not decide that you start trying impossible things, however sometimes it will surprise you (it has surprised me) putting you into situations you thought you could not handle, and you will get through. The thing knows more than my fear. But it also knows that if my fear is too strong I will get paralyzed and do nothing. So it will not take decisions completely against my fear.

The thing will always decide the right thing to do according to the circumstances. If it is a scared decision, it will be because fear is dominating. A decision by the thing is never wrong, it is just biased sometimes, (e.g. biased by fear, ego, rational). And, well, with that explanation, the thing itself does not even need to exist.


Anyhow, if you believe in the thing, that it exists, that it will always do the right thing, at least you will remove the fear of taking the wrong decision, and that's good, because that fear could only have made your decision wrong, (possibly that is).