nadaism: September 2007

Monday, September 17, 2007

If you work with pigs

There's a poem I wrote 4 or 5 years ago, now that I know some former colleagues are listening...

Si trabajas con cerdos el olor no se va.
Llegas a casa y te lijas la piel,
te arrancas las uñas,
las limpias por debajo, y te las vuelves a poner,
frotas uno a uno cada cabello,
abrillantas las axilas y las curcusillas,
haces un enema en cada poro de tus pies,
pero el olor a cerdo sigue ahí.
Puedes pensar que tu trabajo no te afecta,
que desdoblas tu personalidad cuando te vas
y la recompones cuando vuelves,
que puedes mantener tu yo íntimo intacto,
que continúas impermeable a las exigencias del guión.
Pero recuerda: si trabajas con cerdos se te queda el olor.

(Translation into English will follow soon, basically it means if you work with pigs you might think when you get home you clean yourself up, get a shower, and the stink will go, but if you work with pigs you'll smell.)

The idea is actually older; around 10 years ago a friend working as an IT consultant told me about a friend of his who was working in a pig farm.

I remembered about it yesterday during my connecting flight from Frankfurt to Istanbul. I was sitting just beside the wing, and the noise from the engines was quite loud, annoying. But then I realised there were other noises there in the background: the sound of turning the pages of a newspaper from the guy sitting next to me, some quiet conversations (it was late already), the blonde stewardess walking around... and I realised that I could enjoy and relax if I tried to focus and listen to those ambiance sounds, then the dominating clatter of the engine got further and further away...

The guy sitting beside was Turkish. I switched on his reading light (during take off they'd switch everything off, he was reading and he didn't seem to know about it), and after that he was helplessly trying to talk to me; his english was so bad, he spoke good german but I only know a few words (like "kleine" and "grote", some numbers). It was silly, however agreeable at the same, he guy seemed happy meeting me, a foreigner travelling to Turkey. If I understood well, he was going back to visit his father at hospital; lung problems, surgery?.

Probably he had had a long journey from somewhere in Germany, his hands were black dirty and he smelled like a pig. (Is that the reason why I remembered about the poem -or was it because of the noise of the engine?)

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Countdown for Istanbul

10 days to go, and not necessarily coming back...

It's all about time, isnt it? Even if I feel somewhat tired and I have some much staff to get finished (including a frightening VAT declaration), I am quietly waiting and it feels ok.

It would be nice if I said that, after the forced working-break about to finish now, I'm planning to go back to the doing-nothing, to nadaism. But I'm afraid I'm not, I'm just and only really looking forward to continue with my next novel. (However, it depends on how you look at it, writing could be a nadaist activity for me, at least according to Spanish editors.)

Anyhow, the point of this post is the pointless (as the previous post, as everything). I've got the promise of freedom, in Istanbul and around in Turkey, and it's enough for my mind to keep me alive and happy. Besides, there's the pleasure of my resignation, the delight in my leaving.

(Warning: nothing new on the following statement); stupidly enough, it seems that a mind which is forever about to do something, or alternatively, which continuously has just done something, would be a mind in paradise. There's a single thing I'd like, for now: let me enjoy it!

the second language

The second language refers to a quite interesting proposal by Peter Sloterdijk: to try to translate more acuratelly some important words, e.g. enligtenment, in a way everybody (religious or not) could agree with.

There are new needs in the west, where everything has become so rationalistic, but there is an obvious source of misunderstanding when two people think about the same word in different ways. I'll try to find a writter or a phylosopher or a thinker that could have made a clarifying interpretation of 4 concepts: enlightenment, redemption, liberation and devotion.

differences

Is there any essential difference between a man and a woman?

Ok, there's obvious and visible differences. But let's look at it from another point of view.

If you try to live with somebody, and share most of your time, and be completely intimate, and shop furniture together, and even raise children...

do you expect it to be easy to understand and accept the human being you are sharing everything with?

are you not using the fact that your partner is a man or a women as an excuse because you don't understand anything about him/her?

These below are the differences I will accept. For the rest, I'd like to try to prove that men and women think the same way.

Body shapes. Some internal organs. Hormones. "Those days of the month". And only women get pregnant. There are some phisological differences everybody could agree with.

There's cultural differences: men and women are not educated the same way, i.e. they are repressed in different ways. For instance, men should not cry, women should always look beautiful.

There's the common vague understanding that men are somewhat more rational, (in their behaviour and decisions), while women are somehow more connected to their emotions, (i.e. women manage their emotions in a better way, and use them).

And there's the mysterious way in which women know exactly how much more they feel like eating or drinking, and in consecuense at the end of the meal they just sip your glass or cut a portion of a precise weight from your plate - it's exactly the piece they're missing.

The nadaist contract

Do you want to know if a person who passes all the time doing nothing would be able to live a normal and happy life?

The principles

- We humans continually pursue our minor objectives; when achieved, we only realise that they were not satisfactory, and then we look for a new target. A nadaist breaks the circle by not having any objective at all.

- The mind needs to be occupied, the process of thought is endless: either it may be killed (e.g. tv, music, a novel, alcohol, drugs), or given a focus (sometimes the same tv, music, a novel, also studying, investigating, playing an instrument, or other activities that require discipline). Both mechanisms are the same in essence. A perfect nadaist despises any objective, and would rather stop thinking. However thought is difficult to stop and also is sometimes useful (only sometimes; most of the time our thoughts wander aimlessly). A human nadaist is simply aware of how pointless it is either to kill or to focus thought, but uses all methods at hand when thought cannot be stopped.

- A perfect nadaist would kill thought and spend all the time alone and doing nothing. A human nadaist would amaze him/herself choicelessly with many things, would cultivate friendship, and even have a family, why not. Any nadaist knows that thought cannot kill itself by thinking, just tries to listen to his/her thinking, with no resistance.

- Nadaism requires discipline, so that there is no discipline. A nadaist is very careful with randomness, since a perfect chaos would become a pattern, which is the thing to fight against.

- A careless reader may associate nadaism with total uncertainty. But if uncertanty was to be total, then it would become a certainty. There's always room in a nadaist for a few safe places to shelter when thought is pressing up.

- The nadaist is not looking for unhappiness or misery. A nadaist just wants to live in the present, with no concerns about the past or the future, and with no patterns.

Exercises

These are practices that may help to budding nadaists, but they cannot be taken literally since they would become patterns.

- Go to bed and wake up as irregularly as possible. Go for naps at unexpected moments.

- Join courses in different subjects that you may or may not be interested in, and never finish them.

- Hire somebody to go to your home and rearrange your stuff, so that you don't know anymore where anything is.

All hobbies are allowed (reading, sports, games, whatever), but only as a pastime, carefully handled, so that there is no sense of achievement. e.g. a nadaist may go to the cinema, but will remember the least technical details, just the ones to select other movies that are not too boring, and pursuing no targets like following up a full career or a cinema current. A nadaist may also go travelling, just for the amusement. He/she will need to plan the trip to some extent, to try to get to the places that are not pointless, to avoid those in which there is not really much to do. Anyway the nadaist will for sure feel pretty much at ease wherever, will be an independent traveller, flexible, and will move around according to moods.

The contract

I'm committing to follow the nadaist principles. I will not work, I will not engage into any activity at all in the long term, not even in the medium term. I will amaze myself with methods that only try to kill or focus thought in the moment, in a short sight. In order to become a nadaist, I need YOUR MONEY for MY LIVING. If not, I would not be able to follow the principles.

- I will use the money strictly for living and for selfish purposes.

- I will carefully track all the money of each of the contributors.

- If I ever refute nadaism, I will pay 50% of any future income to the nadaist fund, which will give the money back to the contributors proportionally, adding a 100% interest plus inflation. When the total amount has been repayed, I, the failed nadaist, will go back to live a normal life.

- In case of death, my belongings will go 100% to the nadaist fund.

- I will log my daily activity, and if anything is considered to be against the principles, any contributor may issue a complaint. I'll have the right to defend myself, to prove that I was pursuing no objectives. At the end there will be a weighted votation for all the contributors. If I'm declared a failed nadaist, I will give 50% of any future income to the nadaist fund, which will return the money to the contributors, adding 10% interest plus inflation.

- The contributors decide when and what amounts, when to stop paying, but they cannot disengage. They can only expect their money back, with interest, in the cases above.

nadaism

Nadaism is not dead