nadaism: March 2007

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Reading your partner's mind

Sometimes your partner expects you to know what he or she wants, other times he/she would like you to do or to propose or just to say something in particular, which shouldn't be so difficult for you to guess (?), since you are together and know and love each other.

The female is supposed to be the one that expects the other to be an oracle, but I'd say this is a cliché; men are also very happy when they're given by surprise exactly what they wanted. Maybe males don't talk so openly about those dim expectations, maybe they disregard something so vague and emotional even if they feel it or wish it, since they believe it's nonsense or impractical. (According to the cliché, the reason would be that there's only the one thing in males' minds, and anything else is like an additional present they don't really deserve).

Anyway there's the situation, two people living together and one of them does not understand something about the other, but the other thinks the first has understood. Actually the 2nd expects the 1st to understand because it's so obvious, they've even talked about it before, and they love each other so much. Still, the 1st, very much in love, has no clue. Which is annoying for the 2nd. From that point (1st clueless and 2nd upset) onwards, it may only become worse; no solution possible, the 2nd could even try to explain it, again and again, but the 1st will not understand, (why should 1st?, is now a better moment?).

If 1st could read his/her partner's mind, (and a tiny bunch people claims there's means to do it), then 1st would know what 2nd is thinking. But then, 1st would also know absolutely everything about 2nd, every single corner of the mind of 2nd would be clear, the nasty details as well. Maybe if 1st would be able to see 2nd so completely and openly, 1st would not like 2nd so much anymore. Even worse, maybe 2nd has the same ability to read 1st's mind, and 1st is scared that 2nd gets into this magic view of 1st, and some time leater 2nd breaks up in anger.

Those minds with their reading powers would be scared of showing too much of themselves to each other, of finding aspects they don't like (or they could hate) about each other. The problem of not understanding each other will of course remain, but it would be like a secondary matter; maybe it was secondary since the beginning.

It's not that I mean anything by this post. How would I know?, me?, a long-lasting and proved bachelor!. My point is actually about control, how looking for control means missing the point, sometimes.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Waiting chaos

I got my room, finally; no excuses for the chaos anymore. I have the feeling that that I don't find the time for some stuff that I'd like to do, but probably it's because the day is not long enough.

I do my practice, I write, and I cook and I eat, and I rest, and unfortunately as I say I cannot spend much yet for anything else - I hope it will come. For example, I'd like to continue with the translation of the yoga sutras that I promised.

And I'm happy, even if the price for the rent is a small fortune, and whenever I go out I spend small amounts, and not so small sometimes. Money flies fast and I have no income but I cannot be bothered, I don't feel the vertigo, because I'm waiting. Waiting is magic.

I'm waiting for the brother of a friend who is a writer, (I mean somebody real who makes a living from writing); he is reading my novel and promised to give me some honest advice. I have no idea what is he going to do or to say. And I'm waiting for a friend who is going to start up an IT project and might have a part-time job for me, (although I believe it's unlikely he goes for it, and if he does I wouldnt say he will hire me).

Waiting gives you peace of mind, waiting gives you space in your mind because you don't need to worry about the future anymore, because the future will come at the end of your waiting. It does not matter what you are waiting for; if you are waiting you will make your whole mind available for focusing on your day.

Then I practise, I write, I cook, I eat, and I rest. And sometimes I go out. And sometimes I regret a little that still did not find time for some other stuff. It's perfect, I'm centered, I feel I could be waiting for nothing for ever, like this.

However all this is just different words to put the motto of this blog, of course, and the main problem remains: no contributions are going to come. If I could just believe they're on their way, I'd wait for ever.

the second language

The second language refers to a quite interesting proposal by Peter Sloterdijk: to try to translate more acuratelly some important words, e.g. enligtenment, in a way everybody (religious or not) could agree with.

There are new needs in the west, where everything has become so rationalistic, but there is an obvious source of misunderstanding when two people think about the same word in different ways. I'll try to find a writter or a phylosopher or a thinker that could have made a clarifying interpretation of 4 concepts: enlightenment, redemption, liberation and devotion.

differences

Is there any essential difference between a man and a woman?

Ok, there's obvious and visible differences. But let's look at it from another point of view.

If you try to live with somebody, and share most of your time, and be completely intimate, and shop furniture together, and even raise children...

do you expect it to be easy to understand and accept the human being you are sharing everything with?

are you not using the fact that your partner is a man or a women as an excuse because you don't understand anything about him/her?

These below are the differences I will accept. For the rest, I'd like to try to prove that men and women think the same way.

Body shapes. Some internal organs. Hormones. "Those days of the month". And only women get pregnant. There are some phisological differences everybody could agree with.

There's cultural differences: men and women are not educated the same way, i.e. they are repressed in different ways. For instance, men should not cry, women should always look beautiful.

There's the common vague understanding that men are somewhat more rational, (in their behaviour and decisions), while women are somehow more connected to their emotions, (i.e. women manage their emotions in a better way, and use them).

And there's the mysterious way in which women know exactly how much more they feel like eating or drinking, and in consecuense at the end of the meal they just sip your glass or cut a portion of a precise weight from your plate - it's exactly the piece they're missing.

The nadaist contract

Do you want to know if a person who passes all the time doing nothing would be able to live a normal and happy life?

The principles

- We humans continually pursue our minor objectives; when achieved, we only realise that they were not satisfactory, and then we look for a new target. A nadaist breaks the circle by not having any objective at all.

- The mind needs to be occupied, the process of thought is endless: either it may be killed (e.g. tv, music, a novel, alcohol, drugs), or given a focus (sometimes the same tv, music, a novel, also studying, investigating, playing an instrument, or other activities that require discipline). Both mechanisms are the same in essence. A perfect nadaist despises any objective, and would rather stop thinking. However thought is difficult to stop and also is sometimes useful (only sometimes; most of the time our thoughts wander aimlessly). A human nadaist is simply aware of how pointless it is either to kill or to focus thought, but uses all methods at hand when thought cannot be stopped.

- A perfect nadaist would kill thought and spend all the time alone and doing nothing. A human nadaist would amaze him/herself choicelessly with many things, would cultivate friendship, and even have a family, why not. Any nadaist knows that thought cannot kill itself by thinking, just tries to listen to his/her thinking, with no resistance.

- Nadaism requires discipline, so that there is no discipline. A nadaist is very careful with randomness, since a perfect chaos would become a pattern, which is the thing to fight against.

- A careless reader may associate nadaism with total uncertainty. But if uncertanty was to be total, then it would become a certainty. There's always room in a nadaist for a few safe places to shelter when thought is pressing up.

- The nadaist is not looking for unhappiness or misery. A nadaist just wants to live in the present, with no concerns about the past or the future, and with no patterns.

Exercises

These are practices that may help to budding nadaists, but they cannot be taken literally since they would become patterns.

- Go to bed and wake up as irregularly as possible. Go for naps at unexpected moments.

- Join courses in different subjects that you may or may not be interested in, and never finish them.

- Hire somebody to go to your home and rearrange your stuff, so that you don't know anymore where anything is.

All hobbies are allowed (reading, sports, games, whatever), but only as a pastime, carefully handled, so that there is no sense of achievement. e.g. a nadaist may go to the cinema, but will remember the least technical details, just the ones to select other movies that are not too boring, and pursuing no targets like following up a full career or a cinema current. A nadaist may also go travelling, just for the amusement. He/she will need to plan the trip to some extent, to try to get to the places that are not pointless, to avoid those in which there is not really much to do. Anyway the nadaist will for sure feel pretty much at ease wherever, will be an independent traveller, flexible, and will move around according to moods.

The contract

I'm committing to follow the nadaist principles. I will not work, I will not engage into any activity at all in the long term, not even in the medium term. I will amaze myself with methods that only try to kill or focus thought in the moment, in a short sight. In order to become a nadaist, I need YOUR MONEY for MY LIVING. If not, I would not be able to follow the principles.

- I will use the money strictly for living and for selfish purposes.

- I will carefully track all the money of each of the contributors.

- If I ever refute nadaism, I will pay 50% of any future income to the nadaist fund, which will give the money back to the contributors proportionally, adding a 100% interest plus inflation. When the total amount has been repayed, I, the failed nadaist, will go back to live a normal life.

- In case of death, my belongings will go 100% to the nadaist fund.

- I will log my daily activity, and if anything is considered to be against the principles, any contributor may issue a complaint. I'll have the right to defend myself, to prove that I was pursuing no objectives. At the end there will be a weighted votation for all the contributors. If I'm declared a failed nadaist, I will give 50% of any future income to the nadaist fund, which will return the money to the contributors, adding 10% interest plus inflation.

- The contributors decide when and what amounts, when to stop paying, but they cannot disengage. They can only expect their money back, with interest, in the cases above.

nadaism

Nadaism is not dead