Stop thinking!

Thinking is pretty pointless.

My mind spends most of the time making projections about the future and reviewing carefully the past and that's nonsense. You might say that thinking about the future could be good since it helps you to be prepared and to foresee what’s going to happen, but I have my doubts.

For example yesterday I was in a car going to the airport, I already started a bit late and I was in a hurry, and there was a traffic jam. Then I got worried because I might not make it in time, and then start thinking if the ticket was refundable or not, how urgent it was to get to London yesterday, if there would be a plane later, or today or tomorrow or whatever, also, to whom I should call when I miss it, the things that I won’t be able to do, where I was going to stay last night, etc, etc, etc. And it is not that I looked at it very rationally and looked at the different possibilities and the solutions and create a kind of scheme that will define the future action depending on what happens, a tree of decisions, no; I was basically looking at it with anxiety and getting worried. I was not getting prepared for the outcome of the traffic jam, I was not foreseeing, I was just worried. So it was useless.

Of course, I made it on time to the plane and at the end it was just a stupid episode. But, even if I was late and finally I had taken one of the actions I had been thinking about for so long, how long would have taken me to decide what is the right things to do after getting to the airport and being rejected at the check-in counter?, 1 or 2 minutes maximum to get to the same conclusion?. And it is not only the anxiety, it is that maybe in the car the radio was on and there was a song that I loved and I did not listen to it. Or there were beautiful birds flying around, or it was a nice sunny day and you could have opened the window and feel it, or there was a chance for a nice conversation.

I’m not saying that projecting to the future is always useless, but the way I do it most of the time is pretty clumsy and stupid.

Now in London I'll try to investigate meditation, the silence of the mind, a bit further.